What Do They Know

I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I’ve cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.

The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave her up, but inside still sing her song.

I don’t know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn’t be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I’ll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I’ve been?

I’ve traveled so far from home, and can’t find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw her just today and her smile is still the same.
She looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.

I wonder if she remembers me, It hasn’t been that long.
She may have forgotten me, but I still sing her song.

Why?

Like time suspended,
a wound unmended –
you and I…

We had no ending,
no said goodbye…

For all my life,
I’ll wonder why…

Diary of a broken heart

We were just friends at the start,
Always having fun, never apart
Then one day, something sparked
The next thing I knew, you had my heart.

The days flew by,
I lost track of time
Everytime I was with you,
I was on cloud nine.

Then one day, you asked me to be your girlfriend
I exclaimed, yes! and prayed we’d last until the very end.
No one could look into my eyes and say I wasn’t happy,
Happy that I was with you, and you were with me.

With me in your arms, you told me you loved me,
Then gently kissed my forehead and gave me a squeeze.
I was convinced you were the one for me,
Apart from you, I would never be.

Just when I thought all was well,
Was when you began to put me through hell.
You said, we should just be friends
That’s when I knew it was the end.

I looked into your eyes, trying to find out why,
It was all I could do, not to begin to cry.
Where I once saw love, I saw nothing,
I couldn’t believe you no longer felt something.

I lay in bed, counting my tears,
Each representing what I’d hoped would be years.
Years of happiness, for us to be together,
A long-lived life, forever and ever.

But in my heart, I know this will never be,
For in yours, no longer is there a place for me.
I gave you my all; I gave you my heart,
Little did I know that you’d tear it apart.

Everyday I place a smile on my face,
As for tears, there is not a trace.
You ripped me apart, but yet it’s true,
Forever and always, I’ll still love you.

I try to talk t…

I try to talk to you, but I don’t know what to say. I am afraid you don’t want me to say anything. So I don’t. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too… but I’ll never know.